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Apr. 21st, 2009 09:54 pm[Filter: Private]
Two cases in so many days that have been heart rending matters. Even still... it hard to feel anything. I have spoken to a desperately trapped woman, and a couple whose only son is off traveling with people best left to the asylum workers... Even still, I cannot find a shred of compassion that has not been bred into me by years of doing... this. This job that originally made me what I am today. I can make anyone feel comfortable. Perhaps anyone except myself.
I am one of the most powerful men in the city. This means nothing to me, and has meant nothing to me since before I even got it. I remember it vividly that I have never enjoyed helping people. It was heartbreaking sometimes. Sometimes I wish I could get my heart broken again just to feel what it is like.
There has to be something I could do to do that.
Two cases in so many days that have been heart rending matters. Even still... it hard to feel anything. I have spoken to a desperately trapped woman, and a couple whose only son is off traveling with people best left to the asylum workers... Even still, I cannot find a shred of compassion that has not been bred into me by years of doing... this. This job that originally made me what I am today. I can make anyone feel comfortable. Perhaps anyone except myself.
I am one of the most powerful men in the city. This means nothing to me, and has meant nothing to me since before I even got it. I remember it vividly that I have never enjoyed helping people. It was heartbreaking sometimes. Sometimes I wish I could get my heart broken again just to feel what it is like.
There has to be something I could do to do that.
